Oh. well what lovely journals I come back to.

Did I never make you completly happy? I was just your fake best friend through everything, right? No, Oh no who cares now? Dont try to hang out with me anymore, just him. go on, keep ripping me apart. Ignore me. I never made you happy anyway.

Im done. Screw this Im not trying anymore. Count those Day you've been with him, cause thats how long we havn't been friends. Couldnt find a song to express my feelings. never felt like this before. Not mad, not angry. cant find the word.

But go on, find a new Best friend. Im done with you. Thought we were gonna be friends forever, havn't talked, REALLY talked in over three month now. Ah how wonderful. Didn't know ohayocon was cancelled Until recently. Thanks for the update, Was looking forward to that.

Can't belive this is happening. More or less already happened. Been done, i was just blind.

Thanks for them years though, i will never forget.

But im done with it.

Can't take it anymore. don't even take me to the library. Am I really that bad? Can't belive it. been denying it for so long. Now I realize that state of happiness I was in. that pure feeling of having a best friend that never judged you, always cared. Was just a simple thing that could be thrown away when someone better comes along.

I Don't care if you think Im being jealous, or annoying. I DON'T CARE. not anymore. ASK anyone else if they were BEST friends for lets see... Seven or so years.? AND some random person came along and Your friend just stopped trying to do anything with you, IF THEY WOULD BE FUCKING HURT.

hurt.

thats the word.
Tourtured.
self explanitory, I think.
Oh yeah, By the way, I wana keep the memories, kay? Don't take them from me, they were good. I will try to remember forever, But people cant always promise forever, right? Yeah.

I wish Greyson and Shaelyn goodluck, happy times are to be held with you. I know, I have been there. Or they were just happy for me, because I have never made you truely happy before, like him right?

Im not mad. Greyson, Don't take it the wrong way. I know how you are Im happy for you guys. I just wish i could have been a part of your life together, not ignored.
Well, I Said a peice of what I feel. Don't answer either, Won't change anything i have already tried to change things. Im just done with this feeling.
You found new friends, I will find some one day. Thought we were all friends, but nope. Hey, who cares right? Not me anymore.
Tried my best. Failed. Things can work with only one part trying, right?

What ever. Im done. Good luck with your new best friends.

Or whatever.
Goodbye, Hailey K.

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Never take life to seriously, no one make's it out alive anyway.